Hello dear readers...

Well, here I am, married to Steve for 2 1/2 years, and a stay at home Mom of 4 1/2 month old Bridget. Nothing unusual really, but for me it is not only somewhere I would not have expected to end up, but somewhere I was terrified of. I will give you some background info, but this blog is meant to be about the present, so I won't dwell much on the past.

Even just 4 years ago, I was single, living with a roommate, spending most of my time going out with friends and staying out late. I was quite content with that arrangement, not being tied down, and I did not ever want to change it. I did not want to get married, didn't even want a boyfriend, and I definitely did not want to have kids. Being around children made me very uncomfortable, and I wanted nothing to do with them. I think now that it was my mind's way of keeping me from having kids before I was ready.

Then on May 21st, 2005, met Steve. Despite not wanting a boyfriend, I still got a feeling about him right away that he was someone special that I wanted to spend a lot of time with. And I did spend pretty much all of my free time with him. Seven weeks later, to the shock of everyone I knew, we got engaged, and on our year anniversary we got married.

Steve wanted to have kids, but still married me knowing how much I did not. There was no "maybe in a few years", or "we'll talk about it", I was sure, and he accepted that. People told me that since I had changed my mind about getting married I would probably decide to have kids also, and I would promptly dismiss them. In March of 2007 we bought our first house. I suppose that it was a new feeling of stability, and seeing it as a positive thing, not something tying me down, that inspired me to change my mind about having a baby.

I don't know what it was that did it. But one day in June of that year, the negatives to having a children started being outweighed by the good. It took me a few weeks to decide that I really wanted to do it, and to get the courage to tell Steve that I had changed my mind. I felt stupid for having been so sure. After a few beers one afternoon, I got pretty emotional, cried a lot, and told him. We decided to start trying in the near future, which turned out to be the next month, and a couple of months later I was pregnant. It all happened in such a short time frame that the whole thing was very surreal.

So on June 10th, 2008, Bridget June was born right on time after 37 hours of labor and an eventual C-Section. That will be a story for a different day!

When she was about 5 weeks old, we decided to change plans. I would not return to work. So here I am, gone from an anti-domestic, to a stay at home Mom. We are even going to have another baby. In a couple of years. But right now I am adjusting to doing the housework, not knowing what day of the week it is, and mostly just enjoying these unexpected roles I am now in.